So still no call about the blood work as of yet. They did call and set me up an appointment with the high risk doctor on March 12 though. It psyched me out. When my phone rang I knew it was them and then my heart went into my throat. I was amazed I could talk at all. But of course it wasn't about my blood work which was disappointing.
I had a bunch of dreams last night about them calling and telling me they still knew nothing or that it's a 50/50 chance. In one dream they told me that my hormone level went to 158.
Yesterday I started bleeding a bit more as well as cramping a bit more. Still not horrible but makes me a little more scared. I mean I am pretty positive I haven't miscarried yet but it's still pretty awful feeling to be in this position.
So in the meantime I am still just waiting. I hope they call today so we can have more information. I really hate not knowing what is going on.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Monday, February 9, 2009
Week 7: My Little Blueberry
So I went this morning and did the blood work. They said it will be a couple of days before I get the results. We still have our sonogram on Thurs, so hopefully that will also give us some info. But man you just gotta love the waiting game!!
Things are the same. Still spotting and cramping but nothing too bad. Keeping my fingers crossed.
So I wanted to keep doing this until we know for sure one way or another...so here is what they say about the baby this week:
The big news this week: Hands and feet are emerging from developing arms and legs — although they look more like paddles at this point than the tiny, pudgy extremities you're daydreaming about holding and tickling. Technically, your baby is still considered an embryo and has something of a small tail, which is an extension of her tailbone. The tail will disappear within a few weeks, but that's the only thing getting smaller. Your baby has doubled in size since last week and now measures half an inch long, about the size of a blueberry.
Things are the same. Still spotting and cramping but nothing too bad. Keeping my fingers crossed.
So I wanted to keep doing this until we know for sure one way or another...so here is what they say about the baby this week:
The big news this week: Hands and feet are emerging from developing arms and legs — although they look more like paddles at this point than the tiny, pudgy extremities you're daydreaming about holding and tickling. Technically, your baby is still considered an embryo and has something of a small tail, which is an extension of her tailbone. The tail will disappear within a few weeks, but that's the only thing getting smaller. Your baby has doubled in size since last week and now measures half an inch long, about the size of a blueberry.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Spotting
So last Fri. I started spotting some and called my doctor who told me to go to the emergency room. We did and of course waited for so long. It was only a small amount of blood and minor cramping but I got really worried. After hours of being there and some tests and an ultrasound they couldn't say anything was really bad but also couldn't say everything would be ok. I have researched it online and I get some good examples and some not so good but of course they all say there is a 50/50 chance of a good/bad outcome. They have put me on bed rest but have said there is nothing I can really do we just have to wait and see.
I am still bleeding and cramping and there are little clots sometimes. I go back to the doctor Mon and I am supposed to get my hormone levels checked again to see if they get higher or lower. We of course are hoping for higher which will mean the baby is still going strong. I don't think I have miscarried yet and the blood flow isn't too bad. I am just so scared. I go off and on crying but sometimes I think we can make it and I have hope. But then sometimes I am so scared and find myself begging god or the universe or whatever to save my baby. I even beg Ethan, my dad, and anyone I know that has died to keep my little one alive.
So I hate to have to tell you guys over this blog but really it is easiest for me. I can't talk to people right now- it's too hard. But I did want you all to know.
I am still bleeding and cramping and there are little clots sometimes. I go back to the doctor Mon and I am supposed to get my hormone levels checked again to see if they get higher or lower. We of course are hoping for higher which will mean the baby is still going strong. I don't think I have miscarried yet and the blood flow isn't too bad. I am just so scared. I go off and on crying but sometimes I think we can make it and I have hope. But then sometimes I am so scared and find myself begging god or the universe or whatever to save my baby. I even beg Ethan, my dad, and anyone I know that has died to keep my little one alive.
So I hate to have to tell you guys over this blog but really it is easiest for me. I can't talk to people right now- it's too hard. But I did want you all to know.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
My 1rst Doctors Appointment
So it went ok. My blood pressure was high 141/92 I think. They took it again before I left and it was 137/78 so better but the top number was still high.
They did blood work and a few tests and a bunch of questions. Both the nurse and the doctor remembered me from my previous visit and were excited for me.
So I have to do a 24 hour urine collection so they can have a base reading in case there are future blood pressure problems.
We set the sonogram appointment for next Thursday at 9:45am. I am excited about getting to see that little bean. After that appointment we will be going on our trip to Portland and Seattle. I spoke with the doctor about it and she said we could go and make the next appointment for when we get back.
She also told me to take my blood pressure at home with an arm cuff instead of the wrist cuff I have been using. But if my blood pressure continues to be high at the doctors office I will have to start seeing a high risk doctor for this pregnancy as well as seeing her.
So that is that. I guess we will just have to see how it all goes. Keep us in your thoughts/prayers (whatever you do). I want this baby to be healthy and I of course will do what I need to make that happen.
They did blood work and a few tests and a bunch of questions. Both the nurse and the doctor remembered me from my previous visit and were excited for me.
So I have to do a 24 hour urine collection so they can have a base reading in case there are future blood pressure problems.
We set the sonogram appointment for next Thursday at 9:45am. I am excited about getting to see that little bean. After that appointment we will be going on our trip to Portland and Seattle. I spoke with the doctor about it and she said we could go and make the next appointment for when we get back.
She also told me to take my blood pressure at home with an arm cuff instead of the wrist cuff I have been using. But if my blood pressure continues to be high at the doctors office I will have to start seeing a high risk doctor for this pregnancy as well as seeing her.
So that is that. I guess we will just have to see how it all goes. Keep us in your thoughts/prayers (whatever you do). I want this baby to be healthy and I of course will do what I need to make that happen.
A Few Changes
So Mom said she wasn't getting emailed but was a "follower" of the blog so now I have added anyone who is a "follower" of the blog to get emailed. I don't know if any of the rest of you had that issue but if you find that you are getting 2 emails now let me know and I will take you off the one I just added you to. If you aren't getting emails and want to also let me know and I will add you to the list.
Hope this works :)
Hope this works :)
Monday, February 2, 2009
Baby Quilt
So here are the photos of the baby quilt I made for our little lintel bean. It is made out of our old t-shirts and also parts from Ethan's baby blankets and blankets that were made for Ethan's birthday that were donated to hospitals for other bereaved families.
Here is a close up of the monster I made for it and the dragonfly which is my symbol for Ethan and it is on a square from one of his blankets (I like to think of it as he is watching over the baby)
Here is a close up of the monster I made for it and the dragonfly which is my symbol for Ethan and it is on a square from one of his blankets (I like to think of it as he is watching over the baby)
Sunday, February 1, 2009
My Little Lintel Bean: Week 6
So things have been going well. Still some mild nausea and a few headaches but for the most part feeling well. The cramps have also pretty much gone away so I am feeling less scared than before, which is nice. I am just so super excited!!
It's crazy that I am only 6 weeks along. Seems like longer. But interestingly I found out that doctors count how far along you are from the first day of your last period so when really I would only be 4 weeks along they say I am 6.
I also finished my first baby blanket for our little Lintel Bean. I will take photos tomorrow and post them. I like it. Still working on the knitted blanket, I took a break though because I needed a project change to spice things up :) I am probably about a little under 2/3 done with it. So hopefully soonish that one will be done and pictures can be posted (I know I have plenty of time and all but I just love to make things for this little one).
This Wed. is my first doc appointment!! That will also be when we set up the sonogram!! That is super exciting!!
So here is what they say about the baby this week...
This week's major developments: The nose, mouth, and ears that you'll spend so much time kissing in eight months are beginning to take shape. If you could see into your uterus, you'd find an oversize head and dark spots where your baby's eyes and nostrils are starting to form. His emerging ears are marked by small depressions on the sides of the head, and his arms and legs by protruding buds. His heart is beating about 100 to 160 times a minute — almost twice as fast as yours — and blood is beginning to course through his body. His intestines are developing, and the bud of tissue that will give rise to his lungs has appeared. His pituitary gland is forming, as are the rest of his brain, muscles, and bones. Right now, your baby is a quarter of an inch long, about the size of a lentil bean.
It's crazy that I am only 6 weeks along. Seems like longer. But interestingly I found out that doctors count how far along you are from the first day of your last period so when really I would only be 4 weeks along they say I am 6.
I also finished my first baby blanket for our little Lintel Bean. I will take photos tomorrow and post them. I like it. Still working on the knitted blanket, I took a break though because I needed a project change to spice things up :) I am probably about a little under 2/3 done with it. So hopefully soonish that one will be done and pictures can be posted (I know I have plenty of time and all but I just love to make things for this little one).
This Wed. is my first doc appointment!! That will also be when we set up the sonogram!! That is super exciting!!
So here is what they say about the baby this week...
This week's major developments: The nose, mouth, and ears that you'll spend so much time kissing in eight months are beginning to take shape. If you could see into your uterus, you'd find an oversize head and dark spots where your baby's eyes and nostrils are starting to form. His emerging ears are marked by small depressions on the sides of the head, and his arms and legs by protruding buds. His heart is beating about 100 to 160 times a minute — almost twice as fast as yours — and blood is beginning to course through his body. His intestines are developing, and the bud of tissue that will give rise to his lungs has appeared. His pituitary gland is forming, as are the rest of his brain, muscles, and bones. Right now, your baby is a quarter of an inch long, about the size of a lentil bean.
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